Is she going to be done with me?? did I mess it up?

Well id feel really loved and cared for that you wrote a huge text. And honestly, not many guys express themselves like you just did and its definitely a plus. I think you should go see her and confront her in person and tell her how you feel. Prove to her that your love is genuine and something she can rely on for years to come, and maybe even for life. I think she'd feel really love that you care that much for her and i hope she realizes and accepts/respects your feelings. Best of luck =D